I’m sat here all snug in my dressing gown with strawberry cheesecake ice-cream and a cuppa tea, can you tell i’m in desperate need of some home comforts this evening?
Here’s the low-down. I’m up in the peak district for a few days on a canoeing course, something that sounds like it should be alot of run, right? There are parts of me that’s loving this little trip, for example, the absoultley stunning views! Then the parts that are like get me outta here now, it all comes down to me wanting to be the best, if not the best, pretty damn good at what i’m doing. If i’m in a situation where everyone else can do the task better than me and i’m struggling i’m instantly dis-heartened, then add in the cold weather and rain and you might be getting my mood. It’s like y’know everyone there wants you to succeed and do well but in your head all you think is ‘i’m rubbish, I want to give up at least for the time being where i’m making myself look silly’.
I’m not one to give up, I’ll try my best and keep practising until I get what I’m doing. I guess I’ve discovered a few things about myself:
1. I DON’T LIKE BEING MASSIVLEY OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE
This is totally natural, who does like being in that situation? It’s just realising that everyone has different comfort zones, someone else you’re with might be having the time of their life however put them in a different snerio and they’ll be uncomfortable. Bascially, there’s nothing wrong with being scared of doing something.
2. I LIKE TO SUCCEED VERY MUCH (even if I pretend like I don’t care)
I came on this course with the attitude of I know I’m going to fail however I’ll gain some experience and it’ll be fine and dandy. Now my opinions changed. It’s I’m going to try with every little piece of me to nail what I’ve gotta do, I’m going to pass, I can do this! I think the thought of failure scares me a lot, too much. I need to remember that it isn’t failing if you’ve left with more than you started with, even if it is just a little more knowledge.
3. IT’S OKAY TO BE AVERAGE AT SOMETHING
I don’t know about you but I have a handful of hobbies, every single one is time consuming, you don’t have time to practice them all every day, even every week. Some hobbies will take priority, for me it’s climbing and blogging but it’s still okay to develop yourself in the other area’s. Okay yes, I’m not going to become the best at it as I don’t give it loads of time but I’ll be better than before and that’s improvement.
I’ve come to a realisation that I don’t really know where this post is going. I guess it’s me just trying to say don’t be disheartened if someone is better at something than you, you can always improve if you want to and it’s okay to not be as good as them.
I hope you’ve managed to follow this as I feel like my brains been a little bit everywhere on this one. I’d love to hear your opinions on ‘trying to be the best’.