A MAY REFLECTION

meI don’t know about you but for me, May has been one of those months that have absolutely flown by.

Here are a few things that happened in the past month which I want to share:

I Failed my driving test for the second time on may 31st.

I thought I was so prepared and was going to smash it this time. I didn’t make a single mistake on the way to the centre and even my instructor thought I had it in my bag.

But no, I let the nerves get the better of me.

It got to the point where I could feel my heart racing and myself starting to shake, I could feel myself over thinking every little thought that went through my brain.

Here’s one on the three mistakes I made, I was coming up to a mini roundabout when I saw two lorries coming from the right however my judgment was pretty bad and they were much further away than I originally thought, I stopped and I shouldn’t of. I even made the point of saying I’ve stopped and I shouldn’t of but I just couldn’t get myself to move, AH I HATE THE NERVES!

The worst part about this was that I’d made the mistake of telling everyone at work that I had my test that day, I won’t do that again. When I got back that evening and went along to some climbing training I had 15+ people looking at me asking ‘did you pass?’, I had to say I didn’t for the second time and explain why.

I was so embarrassed, I wanted to leave the training and run away for a couple of minutes but ya girl pushed through as I’m stronger than that.

If anyone had any tips at all on how to control your nerves on your driving test I would love to hear; at this point, I am willing to try pretty much anything.

I read two books (which were both pretty damn good)

I’ve finally made myself pick up a book a little bit more and I’m so thankful for it. It helps me de-stress an awful lot and it also helps more ideas flow to my brain which is a massive plus.

If you love reading blog posts about books others have read then you’re in for a treat as a lot more of those are to come. My reading list is huge(not joking).

Started saving for a car (when I’m able to drive it)

I have a little obsession with Fist 500’s and would absolutely love one, my boyfriend takes the mickey out of me as it’s such a classic girl car. (I don’t care, my heart wants one)

I’m not sure if I will end up getting one as my first car as I might just end up using that money I’ve saved to pay off my insurance for the first get a get a cheap at for some practice.

I joke about getting a cheap car for my first encase I back it into a lamppost or bollard but deep down I am a little serious. I mean my instructor’s car has a reverse camera so it’s going to be a whole different ball game without it.

Trying to achieve my stand-up paddleboard coach

I’ve also been working towards my stand up paddle boarding coaching award to add to my list of qualifications for work.

It’s required a lot a lot of stamina as we had to paddle out to a buoy which was 300m(ish, I think) away and back within a certain time limit; it defiantly made me fitter. I eventually achieved the time of 6 minutes and 30 seconds which I’m hoping is quick enough to tick that box off.

I’m hoping to achieve a little more in June as I felt like May ran away from me. I spent half the time relaxing and catching up on sleep so I had enough energy to go to work the next day.

What have been your May highlights?

       Bryony x

 

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13 responses to “A MAY REFLECTION”

  1. Jasmin says:

    Oh no! I’m sure you’ll smash the car driving test next time 🙂 there’s always a next time, you got it 🙂

  2. Jade says:

    I’m sorry you failed a second time hun 😔 I swear I only managed to pass mine because I thought I’d already failed! About 5 minutes into mine a van decided to just slam his breaks on and go round a corner right in from of me- I panicked and slammed ny own breaks one. Obviously thought I’d made a huge mistake and failed, so weirdly the nerves just disappeared! Turns out it was only a minor, but because I thought I’d failed, I guess I wasn’t trying too hard anymore and just enjoyed driving!

    Best of look next time lovely, third times the charm I’m sure ☺️

    Also everyone laughs at me me because I want either a Fiat 500 or a Smart Car, I love them! 😂 Xx

    Jade | jademarie.co.uk

  3. Aleeha says:

    I’m planning on learning how to drive during the summer next year after I have finished my A-levels and I’m already worried about how my test is going to go haha. I get really nervous when I’m under pressure and make the silliest of mistakes !
    Aleeha xXx
    https://www.halesaaw.co.uk/

  4. Tony Mcguire says:

    I think your boyfriend is absolutely right! Fiat 500’s are not good cars

  5. Jess says:

    I’m so sorry you failed your test again hun! Hopefully it’ll be third time lucky! Fiat 500s are so cute but my fiancè is the exact same about them! Can’t wait to read your book posts!

    Jess // foundationsandfairytales.wordpress.com
    xx

  6. Sophie says:

    So sorry that you failed! A top tip I’ve heard so many times is that of you start thinking you’ve already failed then you’ll lose the nerves and do better? Worked for my friend anyway! Good luck for next time! And saving for the car will help motivate you for sure x

    Sophie
    http://www.glowsteady.co.uk

    • bbbryony says:

      thank you lovely, I got excited last time 15 mins in as I hadn’t made a single mistake and lost focus and it went wrong 😂😂😂 x

  7. Abbie says:

    Sorry to hear about your test! But you will get there! ☺️ I’d love to try paddle boarding but it always looks soooo difficult!

    abbiejadewanders.co.uk

  8. Chloe says:

    Well done! Hard luck on the driving test, I definitely understand what you mean about telling everyone lol!

  9. Sara says:

    I’m so sorry to hear that you failed your driving test but I’m sure next time around you will smash it and you can see this time round as a practice run. I was the exact same when learning to drive – being too hesitant was always something my instructor picked up on. I’m the same with Fiat 500s they’re so cute and I love them but my boyfriend and house mates always take the micky! Love this post!

    Sara | http://www.copperandsun.co.uk

  10. Grace says:

    I failed my first two driving tests on silly mistakes because I was so nervous. By the time I did my third, my attitude was “if I pass I pass, if I don’t I’ll try again” – kind of a, I give less of a shit type attitude ha. It helped ease my nerves. Lots of people I know took more than four or five times to pass. We all get there in our own time and when you do pass you’ll know you really are a great driver – tests just aren’t easy for everyone. X

  11. Kayla says:

    I remember taking my driving test, and my anxiety was much worse back then too, so honestly I have no clue how I passed the first time. It was no nerve wreaking! But I thought to myself “I will not let this stranger take away all the hard work I’ve put into this. This IS HAPPENING.” I guess I wouldn’t allow him to have that power over me to fail me, even though he did! But it calmed me! Good luck with your next test, and theres nothing to be embarrassed about! Great post!

  12. I never even started learning to drive, but one of my friends failed her test four times before she passed – you’ll get there eventually and you’ll be an amazing driver by that point! Fiat 500’s are super cute as well, I completely agree.. 😍

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