Imagine you could write a letter and send it back to your younger self, what would your key message be? I’d go for;
You might be able to gather from that the fact I found parts of being a teenager pretty damn tough, I experienced some bullying which unfortunately way too many people do these days. I also struggled with low moods, self-harm and making new friends; I’m sorry that didn’t sound too cheery, it sounded pretty depressing and that’s all little me saw it as at the time.
I grew up and slowly things got slightly better and better, I still struggle every now and then with low moods but I’m so much more on top of my game now. If I could write a letter to fifteen-year-old me this is how it would go…
Hey little Bry, how’re you doing?
Wait, lemme guess you’re currently listening to some You Me At Six whishing you didn’t have to go to school tomorrow? I know too well. Anyway, I’d love it if you could take a few minutes to read my letter, it’s full of little pieces of advice which will hopefully create a smile on your face and lift your chin up a little higher.
HERE WE GO…
I’m aware that you’re struggling at school, not enjoying it and feeling really anxious about not having a pal in some of your classes. It does suck but it’s not for much longer; the friends you have now are some bloody good ones, they’re little gems, they’ll stick by you for years to come, you’ll also make loads of new pals that’ll help shape you into the person you’re today.
I’m also aware that you’re feeling rather down every down and then, in those moments you can’t help but feel hopeless and worthless and like it’ll never change. Here’s a little boost, gal you made it through it, you also didn’t just make it through it you kicked it bloody ass! You managed to become a bubbly positive person, you practiced self-care and totally stopped self-harming, you spoke to someone when you weren’t feeling on top of the world, that really helped you. You also realised that people do care about you, more than you ever could have imagined, they want to help you out and see you succeed; you can do this, it’s just your mind being a little rubbish at the moment.
I see you’re a little insecure about your eyebrows and appearance in general; where do I start… how about with IM IN LOVE WITH YOUR HAIR, it’s so long and healthy. If the idea of dying your hair purple multiple times pops into your head, please ignore it and say ‘Nah, my hair’s fab’. Also, about your eyebrows, I wouldn’t worry too much, you don’t need to over-pluck them; if you really want to you can go to a salon and get them done cheaply. Anyway, you’re totally okay with your brows now, in fact, you even have some snazzy Benefit product that you really enjoy putting on them.
I know some people can express negative opinions on your life choices sometimes, it’s not what you want to hear, don’t let it set you back. You should think, hey I know what I’m doing and I’m going to do it, I can learn from my mistakes, it’s only natural. Just try to block out those kinda people, unfortunately, you’re always going to get them put it doesn’t mean you have to listen to them and do what they say. Just tell them that you understand what they’re saying however that’s just your personal opinion and I have my opinion too.
I chatted quite a lot to you know, I hope you’ve understood from this that things do get better, you get blonde hair, go abroad and lots of other exciting surprises that I don’t want to give away. HANG IN THERE GAL, YOU GOT THIS!
Lots of Love
Twenty Year Old Bryony x
What would you tell your younger self if you had the chance?