What I’ve learnt about myself lately

I recently had my hair done again at my hairdressers (who are ace); the time the bleach/ bleach bath, toner and cut etc takes it a massive four/ four and a half hours. I need many cups of tea, as you could imagine and I make rather a lot of notes on my phone for new blog posts.

In this appointment, I was drawn to think about how well I’m doing at being ‘me’, more specifically what I’ve learnt about myself in the past few months. Here are a few I came up with:

I don’t actually enjoy being by myself for a long period of time

I used to believe that I was a person that really enjoyed their own company. I thought it wouldn’t bother me if I didn’t have lots of plans to meet up with people.

I’ve proved myself wrong this past week; I had a little bit of time off work and I’ve been driving myself crazy as I haven’t had enough plans. I thought I would enjoy having a chilled few days to myself but I now couldn’t think of anything worse, I was messaging all my pals like pls be free I need some company!

I get anxious about driving journeys I’ve never done before

To give you some perspective to this one I can happily drive to my aunties house who lives 45 minutes away, this is due to the fact I’ve done the route many times as a passenger and I know where I’m going.

However, I seem to think different when I’ve never travelled that way before. For example, I made plans with a pal who lives near Cambridge to drive to her and hang for a while; I’d only ever got a train or bus to Cambridge before so I was nervous, to say the least.

Google maps were telling me the journey was only 37 minutes from my house and I could avoid all motorways, I even got the lil google maps man and followed this along with the route the whole way so I’d roughly recognise some roads. I was being told in my head that I couldn’t do it because I would get lost or it would get dark and I could get scared, which is so silly as I want to be able to do it so bad. I’m going to try my hardest to push through and go ahead with this plan because I’d love nothing more than to be able to drive wherever I like without worrying

Going to the gym genuinely makes me feel better about myself

It’s one of those things you always want to put off doing because you’ve had a long day, the person you were going with has bailed or you could just go tomorrow. It’s so easy to not go and end up scrolling through Instagram instead but honestly once I get to the gym and into a workout I feel so so so much better about myself. I’m being productive and doing something with is healthy, so in return to doing something healthy for my body, it seems to put me into a healthier mindset too!

How different Instagram can be from reality

yes I know, a lot of pictures are staged and done to look atheistically pleasing but just hear me out on this one. I have a pal who I saw the other week, she was telling me about how she’d recently been to friends fest in Brighton and how amazing it was, in case you’re wondering I need to go next year? It’s insane! Anyway, she then showed me the images she took of herself and her friends in the stages and there was one that really stood out to me and here’s why:

the image was of them sitting on a friends sofa, the walls were a pale colour and the colour of the sofa was a dull brown. My friend then showed me an image Zoella had posted on Instagram the previous day, in the exact same spot and the room looked like it was a whole different colour scheme. The walls were bright orange and the colours on the sofa popped a lot more, it’s obviously been heavily editing.

When you’re scrolling through Instagram just think oh that’s a nice image and you never actually think about how edited it may be, not that it overly matters but what I’m trying to say is doing compare your own images and yourself to Instagram but it isn’t real life.

I’d be interested know if anyone else feels the same about any of these!

Bryony x



  1. September 23, 2018 / 11:45 am

    I absolutely hate driving to places I don’t know, so I am with you there! Aren’t sat navs/google maps awful to follow? I always get lost!

    Oh my gosh I can’t believe that Zoella story about the sofa, though! I mean, like you said we know that instagram is heavily staged but I didn’t realise to that extent… To be honest, I’m quite impressed!

  2. September 24, 2018 / 1:02 am

    It’s always nice to learn new things about yourself. I can totally relate to you about not enjoying being alone for an extended time. I feel like I am missing out whenever this happens @_@. There are certain roads I’d purposely avoid because it gives me anxiety. It’s great that you feel better after going to the gym! Thanks for sharing these fun facts :).

    Nancy ♥ exquisitely.me

  3. September 25, 2018 / 9:05 am

    I think the anxiety of driving a route you don’t know is almost universal. How on earth did people cope before Satnavs and Google maps?!
    I’m 30 and I’ve only realised in the last year that a lot of things I thought about myself were true, actually aren’t.
    Self-awareness is something that we develop as we mature, I think, and learn to be okay with ourselves!
    Holly | http://www.honestlyholly23.com

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