new year, new me, lol.
I’m sorry I just had to start with that, this isn’t even a new year thing as I haven’t had any alcohol since October I believe. I just haven’t chosen to speak about it until now.
I didn’t sit down one day and decide I was going to give up drinking from that day onwards, that’s not how it happened.
I would barely ever have a drink expect from special occasions such as weddings, birthdays and new years. It wasn’t something I was overly fussed about, I’ve never been the ‘going out out’ kinda gal, in fact, I’ve never been to a club. Except for one time in Portugal about 3 years ago so that doesn’t count.
The loud music, surrounded by loads of drunk people doesn’t appeal to me. I’m aware that I’m making myself sound like an old lady but I think it’s important to state that we don’t all fit into the stereotype of going out all the time when you’re 18.
I find nowadays when I have a drink, I’m emotionally drained for the next week. Like seriously, I would have a hangover the next day but for the next 3 days, I will want to cry over EVERYTHING. I will become such an emotional person, who also thinks a lot more negative. My productivity will massively plummet and I’ll find myself drinking endless cuppa teas whilst scrolling and watching way too many pointless videos. It’s a mindset which isn’t healthy, it’s definitely not one I enjoy being it. Therefore, if there is a way that I can avoid myself being in that situation then I will, aka not drinking.
This isn’t like a strict I’m going ‘teetotal’ vibe, it’s an I’ll have a drink if I would like to, however, most times I’ll turn it down. If I’m at an event with friends I may find myself having a single glass to get that little ‘buzz’ without it overly affecting me.
I heard a really good quote that summarises this, which is: ‘don’t steal too much of tomorrow’s fun for tonight’. This is now my mindset about alcohol.
why have so much that your night ends with you in tears because you’ve got emotional about some silly situation that happened a year ago. okay, that may not be you, but that’s the kinda drunk I am, emotional or super over happy.
from making this decision I’ve found myself drifting apart from certain friends; y’know the ones you would normally meet up with for a drink. when you turn down the offer of that, you don’t end up meeting up, that’s perfectly fine, it’s the way life swings. It just shows that you have certain friends for different things and as you grow you may not stay the same person so, therefore, your friendships may also change.
What’s your relationship with alcohol like?